few more days for my HMC trip,its been quite a week and is going to be QUIT a one this one too.
have heard so so so much abt the hmc trip last year that makes me think who are these kids and are my reactions to them all wrong i mean why can i not be human with them then i realise that its because i just cannot not.

We saw Gandhi my father last morning, well acted is all i can say did not touch my inner soul though, there was something missing something that refused to make me feel...............infact i could see so many of my students there in Harilal always complaning that life lacks things always wanting more always refusing the opertunities given, overtaken by lust, greed and using fathers name for pride and still never happy
The kind of people u could give your all but would never be enough.

But i have decided to change simply bcoz i am hurting myself now, causing pain to me in the desire that others become what we were in our school days but times have changed so have attitudes.
will never be able to be them will try ro understand them and will find a way to relate with them cannot keep hurting myself its too much strain.

As of otherwise life is good ......have made a few commitments need desparetly to lose weight and look good so my new agenda is that lose weight lose weight