its been long and its been tough..........
so much i want to write but still a kind of blankness and numbness............
there is a strange silcence around me that scares me.....insecurity blinds me......the weirdness of thoughts and stiffness of feeling scare me wonder why i feel like this wonder why a have a sword hanging on my head. i want to give up all i want to stay away i want to go into deep wilderness all i want is peace.